It took me to Bali and I was “supposed” to go to India…but it never happened. This was the place I was so excited about, as India is my love! I feel so connected to that country!
I turned 50 in the last year…I got my hair “accidentally” chopped off and I chose a cute haircut and fell in love it. I had a very sweet birthday gathering that was so full of love!
What a journey this year has brought me…9 months ago next week, 2 weeks into being in Bali and my ACL tore and my life changed. No more hiking, walking and exploring the way I was used to. I have gotten so many downloads…lessons, connections to Source showing me so many different things about myself, the gifts in this…and truly it has been amazing! It has brought me so many gifts.
I was on crutches for 4 months, when I went Thailand, my Physiotherapist and I agreed it would be better for me here..and let me tell you, the moment I landed here I was so happy. I loved it here from the first smell of it. I loved eating here, exploring here, everything here, besides the noise of the city in the area I was in was just wonderful to all my senses.
I was guided from within to go, not to Koh Phangan but to Koh Chang…in a week I got my Visa to India and planned to leave in another week to my beloved India, and later that night India said they were closing in 3 days. Everything was canceled…here I was, trapped on this beautiful island…I got off crutches with a day of being on Koh Chang…my armpits were grateful. My days were filled with beach walks, amazing dogs and cats to pet and watching the sunset at peace.
I meditated, listened to and watched things I never felt I had time for. And I learned that I love being with myself. I love people too. But I used to give myself such a hard time for not being around people more and then when we weren’t allowed all pressure was off. And then I could just enjoy me time and so I have been! And it makes my time with people even sweeter.
I have learned how many things I love in life…from music, to singing, playing instruments, teaching, things I love to teach verses things I do for money. I got to watch my mind and see what I got excited about sharing with the world and what I didn’t. What I would do for the heck of it and what I’d do only for money. It has been a powerful eye opener. As I’ve always said… “what you will do for free is what you are to being in life for your career, as you love it that much”.
I know more of what I am passionate about…and how all of these things I have done all my life.
I expect the next year of my life I will be putting all of these in place…depending on many things!
I found out only a week or two ago that my ACL is completely torn and my meniscus now is injured..yet still repairable. So now surgery is the only choice. Before I was told it would heal with physiotherapy, but that didn’t work.
So now I sit and wait…wait for the US to start doing surgeries again 3-6 months or choose to see if I can gather the funds to do the surgery …and all is on a time line as we might be getting kicked out of Thailand…so we’ll see.
It has been a spiritually connecting year…I’ve learned to be grateful for my spirit guides more, I am connected to them deeper, listening more…and feeling into so much.
This has been the year that I feel I am on or close to the other side of menopause (since I don’t have a uterus it is hard to know), but the hungry 40’s are gone and a grounded 50 year old is in her place. So I sit and connect in with everything and see what is next for me. And I am truly loving this grounded place..it is much less crazed and I don’t feel so out of control like a young teenage boy! Man oh Woman…the 40’s are a wild ride! And I miss them a little, though grateful to be calmer now! I can sleep much better now! So much to look forward to now.
I am on my path to putting my work online now…so that is a huge task I’ve been wanting for years now. And only now, having to be alone so much and not teaching in person is getting me on my bootie and starting it…so get ready!
